English

My dream is to spend the rest of my life in feminine attire...glamorous dresses of all kinds from luxurious silky smooth satins to sweet shiny PVC-Latex. But I must point out to you that I'm very inexperienced in more ways than one. I've been cross-dressing privately for some time but, for varying reasons over the years, have not taken many steps beyond this. One of these reasons is my complete lack of relationships. I've made many mistakes in my life, with a lack of understanding and confidence in social situations always hampering me. I've often thought that there were more important things to be doing, or that I'd rather be on my own and not have to always compromise. Despite often feeling lonely, there are still many social occasions where I'd rather be at home on my own. Don't get me wrong, I'm quite a self-assured person, at least on the outside...it's just on the inside where I'm more vulnerable.

I've long fantasised about living in a woman's shoes; since a very early age, I've envied a woman's entitlement to wear a wonderful array of clothes. Whilst at University, I started dressing more than ever and masturbating every day thinking about how good it would be to live as a pre-op or post-op transsexual. There were times when I could go without dressing, but it's never gone away. Since then, pretty much all I've had the courage to do is ogle at the internet and dream. I have however discovered more and more layers to my desires, in particular those that might facilitate or seem to go hand in hand with my feminisation. Perhaps I've been duped into the stereotypical objectification of the female form in all types of media, but I can't help what turns me on...

There's perhaps nothing more I've ever wanted to experience than life as a mellifluous and resourceful sissy for all occasions. But it's partially the belief I'll have to submit my will to another, in return for this opportunity, that's lead me to a fantasy such as this. I've come to desire this submission almost as much, as it's perhaps the opposite side of the same coin, and because I'm well aware that there may be times at which I'll be reluctant to continue. I fear I may not be strong enough to do this on my own...

My sissy fantasy is to be permanently chaste to ensure the control of my desires and my obedience to my firm (but fair) Superior(s), release only coming via prostate milking incorporating Pavlovian conditioning. I'd always be ready to provide pleasure to my Dominant(s) through my mouth and anus and would accept being cuckolded should my Dominant(s) require a proper Man, or Woman, to service them sexually.

Although not keen on pain, I'd willingly accept that its threat and infliction is of vital importance to any training regime. My punishments would be vital in reinforcing my position in the household to exist simply for the comfort & pleasure of my Dominant(s).

To be honest, I don't know where to go from here. As much as I'd like to be able to click my fingers and be in my ideal relationship, whatever that may turn out to be, I'm prepared to be patient. Living with my parents [but hopefully not for much longer], being between jobs and being quite hairy, I'm going to have to be! I may well have to wait until I'm working and living on my own in order to properly fund my development...

In the meantime though, it would be nice to meet, socialise and learn from people in and around Surrey/South London. Ideally, I'd only start my journey of feminisation when I'm ready to do myself justice and become a convincing sissy, but I know I need to experiment [safely] at some point to discover what I really like, and what I really don't. Maybe there's an employer out there who's willing to take a chance on a sissy with a Physics degree...and in return for a job and the necessary training, I can be their personal sissy - do all their cooking and cleaning and of course give them as much pleasure as they can take!!??

Sagittarius

Athletic

Taller Than 6' 4 (1.93 m)

Green

Caucasian

Never Married

No

Not Sure

Wouldn't Even Think About It

Brown

No pets

Yes

University Degree

Unemployed

Less Than $14,999USD

With Parent(s)

There Is No Noise

No

Yes - Socially

Brain

Observant, Reserved

Internet, Movies, Playing Cards, Sports, Tv, Volunteering

Playing Dress-up, Relaxing, Staying At Home, Trying New Things, Tv

I Don't Have Any Friends

Agnostic

Never

Liberal

Clever, Dry / Sarcastic

Documentaries, Situation Comedies, Movies, Sports

Action, Science Fiction, Comedy, Thriller

Rock

Auto-biography, Fantasy, Fiction, Humor, Science Fiction, Sports

Boldness, Empathy, Flirtatiousness, Good Looks, Great Skills, Humor, Intelligence, Oddities, Power, Sensitivity, Spontaneity, Thoughtfullness, Wit

Friend, Date, Intimate, Committed